[tweetmeme] Here’s what I’m dealing with. You might be too.

I’m terrified that I’m wrong.

Not wrong in a little way, like the typos that litter this site, but wrong in a BIG way. I’m worried what I fundamentally believe about my Self and my world is just downright crazy and wrong. And I’m nervous everybody else is in on the joke, except me.

What if? It’s an interesting question to ask yourself.

Arise Your Innerpreneur by listening to my voice, and looking at my words and images

Back in April I created this presentation for the 2010 SHiFT conference in Lisbon, Portugal.

Don’t ask me why it took ’till now to publish it. Some silly business about feeling shame over my creations. Oh, the silly things I do.

[tweetmeme] I love staring at maps. I get such pleasure from studying the landscape, the cities and the shapes, and imagining what it would feel like to experience that place.

My office is home to a huge map of the world where I place pins for every city, state/province, and country I have visited. And every year I get at least one country closer to my goal of covering it entirely with pins.

For whatever reason, I’ve been thinking a lot about maps this past week, and I thought it might be a fun experiment to create an interactive Innerpreneur map, where any Innerpreneur that feels motivated can add themselves, and their business, to it.

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I feel more joy being less connected.

A web presence… me using the Internet to communicate to the globe… sometimes, I wonder what I have gotten myself into. I question if an online life is truly sustainable and if I truly enjoy it. Do I really want to be connected and online, daily, for the long term?

Being online, on a computer, doesn’t feel nearly as amazing to me as being in nature, or meditating, or writing, or traveling, or trekking does. I love it, but only in moderation. It’s too easy to get lost in.

I want to be online only sometimes. I don’t want my computer, or my connection to it, to be my life. I am more empowered and centered when I spend my time being connected to my Self, and to nature.

[tweetmeme] I can’t believe how easy it was to shift my life in Toronto into low gear for the last 3 weeks. Sure, it was “stressful” before I left, but only because I made it so.

Being away and unconnected for such a nice chunk of time showed me how overinflated my sense of purpose had grown and how I was lacking perspective. Publishing, responding to emails, helping clients, spending time with family and friends, all of it doesn’t have to happen now. Though I had fooled myself into thinking it did. The world isn’t waiting for, or depending on, me. I’m not saving lives. I’m not that important. Time keeps on moving, whether I am racing to keep up or not, and this truth feels so good because it makes me feel so small.

For the Next 3 Weeks

[tweetmeme] My husband, Daniel, and I arrived yesterday afternoon in Costa Rica, in celebration of our 2nd wedding anniversary, where we are spending two days at Volcan Arenal — in hopes of seeing some molten-hot magma — before heading North to Nicaragua and the border crossing at the Rio San Juan.

[tweetmeme] I’ve been talking about Innerpreneuring more and more lately… and it’s got me excited and it’s got me thinking. It’s helping me to focus on my purpose and ask a tough question — how can I best support our movement and the people behind it, AND realize my goals?

I’ve concluded that spreading the word, inspiring the people and supporting the businesses behind the movement, is my single-minded purpose. It’s the way that I know how to contribute best. It feels true to Me, and it prevents me from being something I am not. I’m not forum manager, or a community animator, or even a community lover. I add value to the world in different, but just as valuable, ways.

[tweetmeme] Our growth can be so slow that it can often go unnoticed. The beginning of a new year (and a new decade, no less) seems like a good time to reflect on and to celebrate all that we have achieved in the year that has passed.

I’m taking this opportunity to celebrate my successes with you. If you feel so inclined, please use the comments to share and celebrate your success of 2009 with me and the group.

With no further a due, my year in review.

[tweetmeme]Inspiration for an optimistic and growth-filled 2010. Below are excerpts from Bruce Mau‘s Incomplete Manifesto for Growth — statements exemplifying his beliefs, strategies and motivations. Enjoy and Happy 2010!

There is nothing that drives optimism more than passion with a purpose. Find your purpose.

Allow events to change you.

You have to be willing to grow. Growth is different from something that happens to you. You produce it. You live it. The prerequisites for growth: the openness to experience events and the willingness to be changed by them.

Take field trips.

The bandwidth of the world is greater than that of your TV set, or the Internet, or even a totally immersive, interactive, dynamically rendered, object-oriented, real-time, computer graphic-simulated environment.