Scared to Death to Be An Idiot

Yes, almost daily lately!! I sometimes wonder if I really may have that big “L” on my forehead! Yet, I survive from day to day and nobody comes to lock me up….

So, I figure that I like the way I think and the older I get the more I like it and me. I'm not caring as much and just hope that people just accept me for the lovable person I am, even if they think I'm an idiot!

Namaste Tara!

I watched a brilliant piece of video a while ago by a long time student of Zen Master Genpo Roshi. He described how Roshi took him outside of his existing reality by having him describe how he thought life really was. He spoke for about 10 minutes and then Roshi said “Now doubt that.”

I think it's not so much that we're always wrong about it, just that there's always more to the picture than we can see. Great question!

You've got a great perspective, Susan and I'd like to think on my best days I share it. I still struggle with my ego though and the belief that being wrong is not okay. I'm working on it though, working to embrace my idiot;)

Great response, Susan. I had never thought of the perspective you shared, that 'there's always more to the picture than we can see.' Perhaps life is a process of uncovering the picture?

If you'd like to share the video you mentioned with Zen Master Genpo Roshi, I'd love to check it out.

Thanks for commenting!

hehe, well said, Carmen. I love your confidence.

I absolutely understand the feelings of self doubt; I suppose almost everyone does, but it sure doesn't seem like! It is hard to grow up from being a kid who trusts what their parent says into an adult who has to try and find themselves while battling what people and society tell them to be.

I guess I take comfort in the fact that all the people I look up to as brilliant are completely different in how they view the world and what is important, so it is probably okay that I see things the way I do.

I'm new to the site and want to thank you for your posts, you point out some interesting things to think about before I fall asleep.

Carly,

Thank you. You're perspective lifted me up.

Welcome.

I think it was your post about what an innerpreneur is exactly that, I don't know, made me find you through Google, or perhaps it was a tweet, but it pointed out to me that I wasn't the only one with those strange ideas out here.

A couple months before that, helped by a plethora of other reasons and situations I found myself in, I decided I'd been given the chance to do things differently. I turned what I loved doing most into a job and ever since I have been steaming ahead, against the current of what is assumed to be normal entrepreneurship.

So yeah, sometimes I'm wondering too, but judging on how I feel these days, and how most people react to what I'm doing, I have to say that worrying whether I'm an idiot isn't part of that. And I think I'm right doing whatever I do which makes me feel that good. You should too.

Cheers!

I like your thinking, Nils. 'I think I'm right doing whatever I do
which makes me feel that good.' It really is simply about loving what
you do, regardless of what the rest of the world has to say about it.

Thanks for reading and taking the time to comment.