Crazy
I’ve never been so scared. I’ve never shown so much of myself before.
It might sound crazy to allow my customer to pay what it’s worth, but it feels far more crazy to proudly share the book I’ve written about it.
It’s so exposing. And at times, it feels like too much. Far more than I can handle. But then, I know it’s exactly what I can handle.
Generally, I don’t talk much about what I do, but I’m learning and seeing how I need to grow that. I need to share more of what’s in my heart, and not fear it. I need to share my work.
I fully intended to write a post each day last week but something wonderfully unexpected happened. The CBC (Canadian Broadcasting Company) called and asked if I would like to be interviewed by them about my ‘pricing’ approach. Of course, I agreed and on Thursday, I found myself taping 12 radio interviews that will and have aired throughout the country, from the Yukon to PEI. The last one, my 12th, was in Toronto (my hometown), live and in studio. The whole experience I can describe as crazy, amazing, and invigorating. And deeply, deeply tiring. I wasn’t able to keep up my posting.
I am exhausted. By birthing this book, by sharing it, by asking love ones — you, friends, family — to support me in publishing and printing it, but most strongly, by being seen more than I’ve ever been comfortable with. If you look, you can see so much of me. It feels crazy. Scary. Can I really be so safely exposed?
This, I think, has been my question — my BIG question — all along. Is it safe to so fully be seen as me?
photo credit: J. Noblitt
