{"id":4780,"date":"2011-03-08T14:16:18","date_gmt":"2011-03-08T18:16:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/?p=4780"},"modified":"2021-02-04T13:03:15","modified_gmt":"2021-02-04T18:03:15","slug":"getting-closer-to-the-truth-of-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/2011\/03\/08\/getting-closer-to-the-truth-of-me\/","title":{"rendered":"Getting Closer to the Truth of Me"},"content":{"rendered":"
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\"UnMasked\"<\/h3>\n

I’ve been hiding from you.<\/h3>\n

Okay, I’ve been hiding from myself.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I’ve been calling myself a coach for a while now – and it does fit, sort of. I mean, it is a part of what I do…<\/p>\n

But at the heart of me, I am not a coach.<\/h3>\n

At the core of me, what I am, what I have always been, is a designer. A designer and a writer. <\/strong>Doing those two things brings me the greatest pleasure in this world.<\/p>\n

The wonderful people I meet and co-create with, and the way in which we design together (through coaching) is important, but is secondary to my deepest pleasures and god-given talents.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I was hiding my designer behind a coach because…<\/p>\n

I thought I’d like me better as a coach.<\/h3>\n

I thought<\/span> I sometimes think that my value lies in what I do for others, not in who I am. Being a designer, in my old mind, wasn’t “good enough”, it was too much aesthetics and not enough about strategy and helping others. Even though design, to me, is all of those things and more.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Coaching felt safer. It kind of fit and I felt more confident with the description. It helped me to not deal directly with my denial of my designer<\/strong>. It allowed me to feed her sideways off the coaching table. So I did. And have for the last two years.<\/p>\n

I thought you’d like me better as a coach.<\/h3>\n

Why?<\/strong> I don’t know.<\/p>\n

… because I doubted my talent to design, but not my talent to help and support you.<\/p>\n

… because I thought you’d like and respect me more.<\/p>\n

… because I didn’t trust the designer in me, and I doubted you would either.<\/p>\n

… because I didn’t want to deal with what I love being reduced to aesthetics when I know it as so much more.<\/p>\n

I see now that it doesn’t matter what you think about design — or my designs. It matters how I feel when I’m designing. If I design, I am a designer.<\/strong> This is a fact. And it can not be erased by what I actually create, or how anyone else feels about those creations.<\/p>\n

I love to design. I love me as a designer.<\/h3>\n

It makes me sparkle. And, while I love to talk with and support others, I love to create more.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I am, from this moment forward, embracing this. I’m ready to be who I am. It is good enough.<\/p>\n

Maybe it won’t be good enough for you, but it’s finally good enough for me.<\/p>\n

The truth of me.<\/h3>\n

I love to write and to design. It is my heart and it is where my passion lies. Everything else I can do is a wonderful bonus.<\/p>\n

Check out the new DESIGN section of my site to see me clearer, and my value to you. I’ll be adding more to it soon but feel fee to take a look around in the meantime.<\/p>\n

photo credit: Six Studio<\/em><\/p>\n

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\"UnMasked\"<\/h3>\n

I’ve been hiding from you.<\/h3>\n

Okay, I’ve been hiding from myself.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I’ve been calling myself a coach for a while now – and it does fit, sort of. I mean, it is a part of what I do…<\/p>\n

But at the heart of me, I am not a coach.<\/h3>\n

At the core of me, what I am, what I have always been, is a designer. A designer and a writer. <\/strong>Doing those two things brings me the greatest pleasure in this world.<\/p>\n

The wonderful people I meet and co-create with, and the way in which we design together (through coaching) is important, but is secondary to my deepest pleasures and god-given talent.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I was hiding my designer behind a coach because…<\/p>\n

I thought I’d like me better as a coach.<\/h3>\n

I thought<\/span> I sometimes think that my value lies in what I do for others, not in who I am. Being a designer, in my old mind, wasn’t “good enough”, it was too much aesthetics and not enough about strategy and helping others. Even though design, to me, is all of those things and more.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Coaching felt safer. It kind of fit and I felt more confident with the description. It helped me to not deal directly with my denial of my designer<\/strong>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4780","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-my-journey-whats-on-my-mind"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4780","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4780"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4780\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4780"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4780"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4780"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}