{"id":9428,"date":"2016-08-05T10:46:21","date_gmt":"2016-08-05T14:46:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/?p=9428"},"modified":"2016-08-05T10:56:52","modified_gmt":"2016-08-05T14:56:52","slug":"rejected-and-disappointed","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/2016\/08\/05\/rejected-and-disappointed\/","title":{"rendered":"Rejected and Disappointed"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"ttr_start\"><\/div><p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/RejectedDisappointed.png\" alt=\"RejectedDisappointed\" width=\"664\" height=\"248\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-9430\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/RejectedDisappointed.png 664w, https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/RejectedDisappointed-300x112.png 300w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 664px) 100vw, 664px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Not wanting to feel it. Apathy towards the whole thing.<\/p>\n<p>Why bother?<\/p>\n<p>Isn&#8217;t it curious how we can love something. Someone. So much.<\/p>\n<p>And feel so completely rejected and disappointed by them.<\/p>\n<p>Two sides of a coin.<\/p>\n<p>Love and pain.<\/p>\n<p>How can I care so much, and yet desire to care so little?<\/p>\n<p>Apathy. An easy option filled with complications.<\/p>\n<p>Eventually, the truth will catch up with me.<\/p>\n<p>Apathy. A dangerous act to perform.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s hard to keep up. It takes its toll.<\/p>\n<p>Especially when masking the pain of rejection and disappointment.<\/p>\n<p>How long can I pretend before I forget, and the mask falls from my face?<\/p>\n<p>Can I trust myself? Am I that good of an actor?<\/p>\n<p>What if I wore my rejection, my disappointment, without shame?<\/p>\n<p>How might that change things? If you and I were to know the truth?<\/p>\n<p>No reason to hide.<\/p>\n<p>The love and pain, revealed.<\/p>\n<p>Vulnerable. Exposed.<\/p>\n<p>It is what it is. Equanimity. Towards my disappointment and my rejection.<\/p>\n<p>I can learn to love them, as I do you. You&#8217;re intertwined, one. Ever present. <\/p>\n<p>All of what I feel deserves to be felt. <\/p>\n<p>Equally acceptable is my love and my pain.<\/p>\n<p><em>photo credit: <a href=\"https:\/\/www.flickr.com\/photos\/lolika\/390668933\/\" target=\"_blank\">Karla Cantu<\/a><\/em><\/p>\n<div class=\"ttr_end\"><\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Not wanting to feel it. Apathy towards the whole thing. Why bother? Isn&#8217;t it curious how we can love something. Someone. So much. And feel so completely rejected and disappointed by them. Two sides of a coin. Love and pain. How can I care so much, and yet desire to care so little? Apathy. An [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":9430,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[557,214,231,556,543,238,237,558,366,526],"class_list":["post-9428","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-growing","tag-apathy","tag-awareness","tag-care","tag-disappointment","tag-equanimity","tag-feelings","tag-rejection","tag-shame","tag-truth","tag-vulnerability"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9428","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=9428"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9428\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/9430"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=9428"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=9428"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=9428"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}