{"id":9594,"date":"2016-12-16T15:46:07","date_gmt":"2016-12-16T20:46:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/?p=9594"},"modified":"2016-12-16T16:25:05","modified_gmt":"2016-12-16T21:25:05","slug":"vulnerable","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/2016\/12\/16\/vulnerable\/","title":{"rendered":"Vulnerable"},"content":{"rendered":"
<\/div>

\"vulnerable\"<\/p>\n

It’s a risk. I’m afraid. What will you think of me? What will I think of me? If I tell my hidden truth?<\/p>\n

I feel so ashamed. How could I show you that? I can not take the chance of showing my true face to you.<\/em><\/p>\n

The idea of bearing it is terrifying. In fact, it is more than that, it is life threatening. My neediness threatens my life. It terrifies me. I don’t want to feel it.<\/p>\n

I must protect from it. I can not need love. I can not show how I need you. I must protect who I truly am behind my performance of independence.<\/em><\/p>\n

Why do I feel the truth in my heart is so ugly? So shameful? Why do I feel I must cover it up?<\/p>\n

If you knew what was in me, if I showed it to you, I’d be under threat. From me. From you. From the weight of my unbearably inconvenient truth.<\/em><\/p>\n

Yet if I can break through my fear and allow myself to be vulnerable, what lies on the other side? Could the very thing I fear so much be the very thing to set me free?<\/p>\n

But of course. My life is not threatened by my vulnerability. Not anymore, at least. I’m now an adult, in charge of my life. I have the ability to unlearn the faux-protection granted by aloofness and lack-of-care, and allow myself to re-access the wholeness within me. With courage, I have what it takes to face the truth in my heart. I can be me. Vulnerable. Truthful. Completely me.<\/p>\n

photo credit: emily mucha<\/a><\/em><\/p>\n

<\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

It’s a risk. I’m afraid. What will you think of me? What will I think of me? If I tell my hidden truth? I feel so ashamed. How could I show you that? I can not take the chance of showing my true face to you. The idea of bearing it is terrifying. In fact, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":9609,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[231,566,327,303,473,558,424,366,526,328],"class_list":["post-9594","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-growing","tag-care","tag-courage","tag-emotion","tag-fear","tag-self-protection","tag-shame","tag-true-nature","tag-truth","tag-vulnerability","tag-wholeness"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9594","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=9594"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9594\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/9609"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=9594"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=9594"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.elasticmind.ca\/innerpreneur\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=9594"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}