Rejected and Disappointed

Not wanting to feel it. Apathy towards the whole thing. Why bother? Isn’t it curious how we can love something. Someone. So much. And feel so completely rejected and disappointed by them. Two sides of a coin. Love and pain. How can I care so much, and yet desire...

Skimming the Surface

To see only yourself in every reflection, and only the parts you want to see, a life is lived in the shallow end. Where there is deepness and darkness, you do not probe, unwilling to go deeper. Uncomfortable with its truth, you reject and dismiss that which you care...

The Cost of Being Agreeable

We learn to articulate our personal power by saying no. Feeling my desire to be agreeable, and my fear of rejection, I say no anyway. I learn to be more me. There is wonder in the myriad of consequences created by responding negatively to requests. There is magic in...

If I Deserve It

Despite my best efforts to prove the contrary, what I do (or do not) deserve is not in my jurisdiction. I don’t get to decide whether I am worth it. When Life provides me with something wonderful, it’s not my job (or right) to decide if I deserve it. That...

Saying No

No

It’s hard to say no sometimes.

Sometimes it feels like I can’t say it.

That it would be wrong to.

In those moments, I am feeling that no is not an option for me.