Disowned

Disowned

I can’t take ownership of these feelings, these thoughts.

These issues are not mine to hold.

I am without scars; flawless. Undesirable qualities, I have not.

It is You that is angry. Jealous. Insecure. It is You that is to blame.

It is You that has these faulty thoughts, incorrect feelings.

You are the source of what I do not like.

About myself.

You are my projection.

It is You that I can blame for these uncomfortable feelings. For my distress.

It is on You that I can dump and disown what I do not want to see.

About myself.

Disowning myself and disrespecting my truth makes it easier to disrespect Yours.

My thoughts, motivations, desires, and feelings do not matter, so why should Yours?

photo credit: Gabe Austin

Criticize, Condemn, and Complain

Criticize, Condemn, and Complain

No matter what you do or don’t do, I always have a choice in how I communicate with you. You can’t make me do or feel anything.

If I choose to not consciously communicate, I am choosing to give away my power. Whether I am attempting to feel small or big in front of you, my unconscious words are reducing me to less than I am.

If you can stay steady in you, I can’t claim your power. Despite my anger-filled desire, my words can’t possibly do this. Nothing external can.

Only you can allow something external to reduce or deflate you. Even my careless words.

If I am not being anything but respectful and loving towards you, know it’s not about you, it’s about me. It just happens to appear to be directed at you.

It’s an optical illusion I like to perform. It helps the weight of my responsibility to magically disappear for a moment and appear on you.

photo credit: Chris Devers