Cool to Be Cruel

Cool to Be Cruel

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Who was it that decided
It was cool to be cruel?

Who was it that instructed you
To cover up your envy.

With cutting words
Used to feel oh so clever.

Holding your balance
On the pedestal you’ve precariously perched on.

Hoping to tower over
Your item of envy.

They need to be smaller
Small, like you feel when you’re around them.

Small, like you feel.

When you forget how beautiful you are
You can be so very ugly.

Your cutting words
Will never leave you feeling valued.

Self-satisfied
Masturbated, perhaps.

Your ego safely tucked
Behind your manufactured cool.

Maybe they won’t notice
How insecure you are.

You’re more beautiful
Than you act.

It’s a shame
You don’t know.

How your envy leaves you exposed
To what’s behind your performance.

You’re caught up in comparison
And your need to control.

How insecure you are
You’re trying to feel better.

Looking at everyone else
You never see the best in you.

Never getting that your beauty
Isn’t forced into production.

It’s yours
Naturally.

Clever and cool are words
That do not express.

An opportunity for love wasted
Beauty masked.

photo credit: Dori

Love and Esteem

Love and Esteem

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What if these two things were created equal?

What if wealth, beauty and status mattered as much as compassion, respect, care and value?

How would that change things?

What if my self-esteem (my view of wealth, beauty and status) was equal to my self-love (my view of compassion, respect, care and value)?

What if I focused on respecting my feelings (compassion), setting my boundaries (respect), ensuring my wellness (care) and cultivating my gifts (value)?

Would I find that my power (beauty, wealth and status) had grown as a result?

My esteem wants to have and do but without knowing where my love lies, am I really getting what I want?

I can make the connection.

Between my external desires and my internal needs. I do not need to pursue one at the expense of the other.

Through loving myself I am creating the esteem I desire.

 

This article was partially inspired by the concepts found in Madly In Love With Me by Christine Arylo.

photo credit: stars alive