Letting Go Of Keeping Up

by Tara Joyce | Mar 11, 2009 | Self/Business Growth

I don’t want to feel like I am always racing to keep up. But sometimes I do.

The emails that my heart wants to write, the article ideas lost in my head or in a book.

I know the answer is that it will all get done. That I need to tackle each as it comes and not fret about all that isn’t done.

But I wonder if it isn’t an innerpreneur’s natural inclination to see what isn’t created, rather than what is?

Growth is slow

I’ve spent the last week engrossed in my pricing and service platform. I’m trying to figure out how to authentically describe what I do. I’ve added my work-in-progress expertise to the blog. Hopefully it connects.

Rather than pat myself on the back for completing an integral part of my business, I sit and fret over everything that isn’t done.

The Elastic Mind website I wrote that I can’t seem to finish, the innerpreneur blog that I want to improve for us.

The list doesn’t end and it never will

I need to find a way to be okay with this – to not be disappointed by everything I haven’t done. I know this feeling but I thought I had let it go.

It is enough that I am on this path. And working every day to grow it.

But then doubt strikes me and I wonder if I shouldn’t be working harder, longer.

I choose to do this because I want a balanced, bliss-filled life but I wonder if that isn’t possible. The surge of responsibilities that come with running a business make it hard to ever feel at rest. I need to stop worrying that I am disappointing people.

No one cares as much as I do

I am not letting anyone down. It matters more to me.

I am not letting myself down. I am achieving my dreams. How can I be disappointed by that?