Doing Serious Things Badly
THIS IS SERIOUS, my ego screams. She wants my work to be great. For her, it isn't enough to create, it's only worth while if I create something great. For her, it isn't about quantity, only quality. She is not content with letting me practice and discover my process. She wants serious results, and she wants them now. She, my ego, has begun her screaming, and quickly my previously delightful project becomes a source of anxiety. Doubt has set up shop and I find I'm no longer working for the sake of it. I'm no longer happy just being on the field, suddenly I need to run the fastest and the best.