When I feel I need to perform, my mind jumps to conclusions over and over about how YOU are interpreting and enjoying what I am doing or have done. Over and over I come up with negative judgements about what I have produced, and what YOU have decided. I can't be perfect. IT can't be perfect. And yet I WANT (it) to be, and, in part, I feel I NEED (it) to be. Maybe then SHE would be satisfied. I AM my own worst judge. Perhaps, my conclusions will always happen. Perhaps, my mind, my ...

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