2 posts tagged fulfillment

Means so much

The Thing That Means SO MUCH

A Calling I've always wanted to — and knew I needed to — WRITE a BOOK. If I knew anything about myself, I KNEW this. And this KNOWING was so powerful that it became incredibly painful. Resistance But I didn't know how, so I tried to escape from IT. The pressure of IT. For a while. With time and practice, it became not so much the WRITING that weighed, but THE (unwritten) BOOK itself. As did my resistance to ALL THE MEANING I had now placed on IT. Nothing meant more ...

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The Want of Others

The wants of others used to matter to me. I thought somehow they were mine to fulfill. At some point I decided that while my wants didn't matter too much, other people's were of paramount importance. I convinced myself I was being caring, or helpful, or altruistic, or some other adjective that bathed me in a golden light, in giving what they wanted. I allowed other people's wants, and the fulfillment of them, to become my concern. And while I pretended to be okay with it, and ...

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