2 posts tagged shame

Vulnerable

It's a risk. I'm afraid. What will you think of me? What will I think of me? If I tell my hidden truth? I feel so ashamed. How could I show you that? I can not take the chance of showing my true face to you. The idea of bearing it is terrifying. In fact, it is more than that, it is life threatening. My neediness threatens my life. It terrifies me. I don't want to feel it. I must protect from it. I can not need love. I can not show how I need you. I must protect who I truly am ...

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Rejected and Disappointed

Not wanting to feel it. Apathy towards the whole thing. Why bother? Isn't it curious how we can love something. Someone. So much. And feel so completely rejected and disappointed by them. Two sides of a coin. Love and pain. How can I care so much, and yet desire to care so little? Apathy. An easy option filled with complications. Eventually, the truth will catch up with me. Apathy. A dangerous act to perform. It's hard to keep up. It takes its toll. Especi...

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