14 posts tagged truth

Resolving Our Past

We need to resolve our past, so we can expose our truth and move forward with our lives. We are drowning in our unresolved emotions. Unrecognized, they weigh us down. Depressed by them, we unknowingly hide and mask them. So often we think our uncomfortable emotions away, doing everything we can not to feel the truth of them. Our rationalizations become what is real to us, and what we feel. What is not comfortable we do not acknowledge. Disconnected from the truth of our emotions, we ...

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Vulnerable

It's a risk. I'm afraid. What will you think of me? What will I think of me? If I tell my hidden truth? I feel so ashamed. How could I show you that? I can not take the chance of showing my true face to you. The idea of bearing it is terrifying. In fact, it is more than that, it is life threatening. My neediness threatens my life. It terrifies me. I don't want to feel it. I must protect from it. I can not need love. I can not show how I need you. I must protect who I truly am ...

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Rejected and Disappointed

Not wanting to feel it. Apathy towards the whole thing. Why bother? Isn't it curious how we can love something. Someone. So much. And feel so completely rejected and disappointed by them. Two sides of a coin. Love and pain. How can I care so much, and yet desire to care so little? Apathy. An easy option filled with complications. Eventually, the truth will catch up with me. Apathy. A dangerous act to perform. It's hard to keep up. It takes its toll. Especi...

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Skimming the Surface

To see only yourself in every reflection, and only the parts you want to see, a life is lived in the shallow end. Where there is deepness and darkness, you do not probe, unwilling to go deeper. Uncomfortable with its truth, you reject and dismiss that which you care not to understand. To be shallow is to only see—and believe in—the surface facade of others, and of yourself. This shiny surface is so alluring when the darker, less "perfect" aspects of yourself are unacceptable. You ...

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“Better” Than You

It's an endless quest to be good enough in another person's eyes. Not facing our own thoughts and feelings, we measure our self using the eyes of another. Unable to acknowledge it's really our own perception of self that we use as the measure—not theirs. It takes practice to feel good and whole as we are. Sometimes, rather than doing this, we buy clothes and things, chase and stockpile money, and do what we can to be "better" than others. In comparison, we find our worth. Rather ...

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