5 posts tagged vulnerability

Resolving Our Past

We need to resolve our past, so we can expose our truth and move forward with our lives. We are drowning in our unresolved emotions. Unrecognized, they weigh us down. Depressed by them, we unknowingly hide and mask them. So often we think our uncomfortable emotions away, doing everything we can not to feel the truth of them. Our rationalizations become what is real to us, and what we feel. What is not comfortable we do not acknowledge. Disconnected from the truth of our emotions, we ...

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Vulnerable

It's a risk. I'm afraid. What will you think of me? What will I think of me? If I tell my hidden truth? I feel so ashamed. How could I show you that? I can not take the chance of showing my true face to you. The idea of bearing it is terrifying. In fact, it is more than that, it is life threatening. My neediness threatens my life. It terrifies me. I don't want to feel it. I must protect from it. I can not need love. I can not show how I need you. I must protect who I truly am ...

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Rejected and Disappointed

Not wanting to feel it. Apathy towards the whole thing. Why bother? Isn't it curious how we can love something. Someone. So much. And feel so completely rejected and disappointed by them. Two sides of a coin. Love and pain. How can I care so much, and yet desire to care so little? Apathy. An easy option filled with complications. Eventually, the truth will catch up with me. Apathy. A dangerous act to perform. It's hard to keep up. It takes its toll. Especi...

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Performing

So good at the act that you forget what's true. So good at pretending that the unreal becomes real. What you feel is under your control. You can simply act it away. A mask of neutrality. Leads you to believe you might actually feel it. You can ignore your feelings. You can act forever. Yet at some point, the inevitable curtain comes down, and the performance ends. You are left with you; and the feelings you're pretending aren't there. If only for a moment. ...

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Emotional Self-Abandonment

We, as humans, have a tendency to use our mind to negate our emotions. We use our mind as a tool to abandon how we feel. I know, personally, I often use my mind to abandon my negative feelings, especially when they are directed at someone I love. In these moments, I'd rather pretend the feelings aren't there... than explore why they are. The result of doing this, of locking up my sensitives in my logical mind, is that I disown my feelings and my emotional needs. For some of us, we ...

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