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Help for My Helpful Condition

by | Oct 13, 2011 | Self/Business Growth


On tap and on demand.

I used to be “on call”. Any time you “suddenly” needed me, I was there.

I used to think I was making things better for you by “fixing” them.

I used to use you to make myself feel useful.

It feels great to be needed?

I like being seen as a “great” and “caring” person. I do not like how tapped out I feel as a result.

I do not like how I couldn’t claim the time or energy I needed as safely my own.

Each time I put my life and my plans on hold to accommodate you, I was quieting my voice. Each time I ran to rescue you, I was abusing my creative energy by allowing you to dine freely on my time, talent and energy.

And it made me angry – at you – but mostly at myself.

Now I “care” a lot less.

I’m consciously not investing in those kind of relationships or situations – the ones that are demanding of my time.

I am choosing to honour my right to expect and receive a fair return on my investments in energy.

I’m working to stop robbing myself of the power to effectively invest elsewhere, and in myself. It’s far too sad to consciously know I am squandering my energy when I have the ability to spend it along lines that I find personally and creatively rewarding.

Not on demand and ready for action.

I no longer want to perpetuate my unhealthy adherence to societal demands in exchange for a meager diet that leaves me hungry.

I’m getting help for my helpful condition and I’m forgetting the idea that being on-tap and on-demand attention = loving, and that deferring gratification = coldness. I’m choosing to see my Self in a more empowering light and that self love and respect = valuing what I need from my Self as much as what you need from me.

Tara Joyce

Written by Tara Joyce

In 2008, I started this blog as I began working for myself. It is a reflection of my innerpreneurial journey, growing myself to grow my business. ABOUT ME

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