Criticize, Condemn, and Complain

No matter what you do or don't do, I always have a choice in how I communicate with you. You can't make me do or feel anything. If I choose to not consciously communicate, I am choosing to give away my power. Whether I am attempting to feel small or big in front of you, my unconscious words are reducing me to less than I am. If you can stay steady in you, I can't claim your power. Despite my anger-filled desire, my words can't possibly do this. Nothing external can. Only you can ...

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Standing For Accountability

It seems we are being challenged at this very moment to stand for what we know is true and right. Whether we are being called to empower ourselves as we face political bullies, companies that abuse their power, and/or other entities that prey on our natural weaknesses, this is a time of great transformation and opportunity. It is a time for us to stand and to use our voices. In my own world, I've been challenged over and over in the past weeks by broken systems that attempt to dehumanize ...

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Now Back to Our Regularly Scheduled Programming

Dear Reader, As you may or may not have noticed, I've been quiet for all of January. While I certainly feel like hibernating (since there is little to no sun in Toronto right now), the real reason I've been quiet is because my site has been down due to a hacked website on the server I share through my web host. It was a lovely practice in patience as I waited for it to be restored. I very much appreciate your patience too as I've worked to resolve the issue. Now that things are ...

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Wishing You A Joyful Holidays

Hello dear reader, I realize I don't often address you directly, do I? That feels funny since you are such a gift to me. <3 Most of the time, I write these words because I am experiencing something in my own life and I need my words, and playing with them, to feel into the experience. I find the whole process of writing, editing, and publishing what I need to express supportive and therapeutic. When I learn these words I need so much to enjoy and explore myself, are touching you ...

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Vulnerable

It's a risk. I'm afraid. What will you think of me? What will I think of me? If I tell my hidden truth? I feel so ashamed. How could I show you that? I can not take the chance of showing my true face to you. The idea of bearing it is terrifying. In fact, it is more than that, it is life threatening. My neediness threatens my life. It terrifies me. I don't want to feel it. I must protect from it. I can not need love. I can not show how I need you. I must protect who I truly am ...

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